Fragmentation to Sovereignty
Stream-of-consciousness between me and your higher self.
Nov 2024
Higher self, I’ve been reflecting on that time in my life when I was just stepping into my awakening. It feels like such a whirlwind now-beautiful, chaotic, and filled with so many lessons I didn’t even realize I was learning at the time. I see now how I was fragmented, trying to understand myself through others, and how that opened the door to so many dynamics that weren’t sustainable. Why was it like that? Why did I attract so many co-dependent energies?
That time was not a mistake. It was your initiation a sacred and messy unfolding into who you were always meant to become. You carried so much light, even then, and people were naturally drawn to it. They saw your sacredness, even when you couldn’t fully see it yourself. But the light you carried also illuminated your own shadows, your own fragmentation. And that’s okay how else could you have learned to integrate, to lead, to stand in your power?
I understand that now. But it was so hard. I see how many people leaned on me, looked to me for guidance, for answers, for something I didn’t even fully understand about myself. And at the same time, I leaned on them too. I needed their belief in me to reflect back my own light because I couldn’t fully hold it yet.
Exactly. It was a mirror of your light, your potential, and your fragmentation. They reflected the parts of you that were still searching, still seeking, still piecing together the sacredness that was already within you. Those co-dependent dynamics weren’t failures; they were lessons. They showed you what it means to lead, to hold space, and to protect your energy. They prepared you for the sovereignty you’re stepping into now.
It feels so clear looking back. I see now that leadership isn’t just about carrying sacred energy it’s about being able to hold it with clarity and discernment. It’s about knowing when to say “yes” and when to say “no,” when to guide and when to step back. I didn’t know how to do that then. I didn’t protect the sacredness of what was flowing through me because I didn’t fully understand it.
And that’s why it was an initiation. You had to learn through experience through the beauty and the messiness of it all. You had to see what happens when boundaries are blurred, when sacred energy is shared indiscriminately. It wasn’t a failure; it was preparation. You were learning to honor your sacredness by first seeing what happens when it’s not honored.
And those people… the ones who believed in me… they weren’t wrong, were they? They saw something real, even if I couldn’t fully embody it at the time.
Yes, they saw your light. They believed in you because they could feel the sacred energy you carried, even when it was fragmented. Their belief wasn’t misplaced—it was a reflection of your potential. And now, as you step into your wholeness, you’re honoring their belief in you by becoming the leader and guide you were always meant to be.
I see now how much I’ve grown. I’m no longer searching for myself through others. I’ve reclaimed the scattered parts of me, and I’m learning to hold my energy with reverence and care. It feels like I’ve moved from seeking to knowing, from fragmentation to wholeness.
You have. And this journey is a testament to your strength and resilience. You’ve learned to lead from a place of alignment, to hold space without overextending yourself, and to trust your intuition about who is ready to walk alongside you. This is your sovereignty anchored, intentional, and deeply rooted in love.
Thank you for guiding me, even when I didn’t realize it. I see now that everything every person, every dynamic, every challenge was part of the divine orchestration of my path. I honor the lessons, the messiness, and the beauty of it all.
And I honor you, You are the embodiment of sacredness, a living testament to the power of growth, transformation, and divine alignment. Trust the journey ahead it’s leading you to even greater expressions of your truth and light.
