A letter to yourself; tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself…

Dear Stephanie,

When was that last time you’ve told yourself all the things you love about yourself? How long has it been since you’ve had a heart to heart with you, with us. I miss connecting with you, we gain so much insight into ourselves and your experiences when we speak with each other.

I want to go down memory lane for a bit… Do you recall, those days when babysitters refuse to sit you saying you were too “difficult”. All those times your mother got called to school because you were being what…. Oh yea that is right “difficult”.  All those unpleasant fights with your parents, family & teachers… They didn’t like the fact that you always had an opinion practically from the moment you learned to speak.  That was always seen as being disrespectful and rowdy.  Yet I admire you for having enough courage from a young age to think for yourself & speak up whenever you felt passionate about something, someone or some cause. You always spoke your mind and fought for what you believed, especially people. Even if, your method at times were not the best in handling situations, your emotions often,  got the best of you. And you felt, as if every-day was you against the world; perceiving that no one understood you. Still, I love that you were able to overcome those personal challenges by choosing to understand yourself first before expecting others to understand you.

You always urged yourself to  be better than you were yesterday. Especially in times when you felt life was against you, because no matter how hard you tried you couldn’t please everyone. While you, still have your opinions & very much certain about yourself.  You’ve learned overtime, that not everything is worth fighting for and that even when another doesn’t grasp your viewpoint, you understand that you can attempt to see their point of view regardless of where you stand. You accept others for who they are even in times when they don’t accept you. I love that about you!

I think its cool how you can put yourself in the shoes of others, to feel what they feel, to see what they see and where they are. That is a BEAUTIFUL gift my dear, to carry a great level of compassion as you do. Despite the fact that it has brought you a lot of pain and challenges, you always try to come from a place of love, but what I love the most – these days – is you remember to look out for yourself too.

I love that you’re not sad anymore; that these days you smile more than ever. I love how you’ve become more aware of your own light, allowing it to just be. Remember when you use to hide it? You use to feel guilty about it & didn’t let others see it, for fear they wouldn’t like you? But today you understand that the energy of love & compassion; that you carry within has and will continue to transform those around you, even when you aren’t aware of it. That simply being who you are, is enough to inspire another. You don’t have to do anything… What an amazing gift? The simple act to just BE. I recognize that in your human experience it’s takes more effort to understand that.

Yet, do me a favor, won’t you?  Don’t be so hard on yourself, when you feel as if you aren’t doing enough or, that you’re not where you think you need to be and even more when you think that you aren’t making a difference. I want you know that indeed you are living your purpose. Which is simply to be WHO YOU ARE… A loving person who is filled with zest for life, a desire to contribute to others, a longing to make a difference. A determination to always keep growing, learning & experiencing all aspect of yourself.

I love that you are naturally inquisitive. Your desire to know more has brought you the awareness that you are powerful beyond this experience.  I love that you constantly trying to experience the full essence of WHO YOU ARE.  I love that more times than not you don’t live by anyone else standards but your own.

I love how comfortable you are with change, you actually welcome it.  I remember a time, long ago when you didn’t like change. But life taught you that change is the only constant in the UNIVERSE. Everything changes it’s the natural law of life.

You learned early on what violence was and what anger makes people do. So you embarked on the journey to tackle your inner demons. To look at your anger rather than suppress it or make yourself wrong for it. I am proud that you took time to understand your anger, and in acknowledging that you always have a choice. That you could choose to live in anger or you can look to heal & expand beyond it.

You  also learned that people will sometimes dislike you for just being who you are and that no matter how hard you try, they will still dislike you. I love that hasn’t stopped you from expressing who you are.

In times of pure loneliness, when your heart ached, when you didn’t have the support, when you understood what it took to be a great friend, but you didn’t experience that in return for a long time. Though through that, you learned to love & accept yourself. You became your own best friend.  Ay, how wonderful is that? Isn’t it interesting, how some your toughest moments were the one’s that allowed you to SEE  your beauty, your strength and all that you are capable of? 

I am happy that you overcame your sadness & darkness. That you didn’t take your own life, even when you were close to it.  You learned to heal yourself so you wouldn’t have to depend on something or someone outside yourself to make you feel better. Though, you must admit that once you learned those lesson; life on its own brought you a great friend for life.

Why do you think you gave yourself so many challenges growing up? What I already knew then, at a time when you were just starting to assimilate it.  Was that each challenge you were facing was contributing to your inner strength, & enriching your spirit with the wisdom that allowed you to begin shedding the outer layers of who you were not. So let me take this time to reassure you that you are exactly where you’re suppose to be. There isn’t one particular thing you need to do. Your task is to be yourself, to create, to follow those things you are passionate about and to allow your imagination to run free as it’s always been. There lies your power… Know that your purpose is not teach others STEPHANIE you lead by example as you continue to live life and be yourself. That alone will inspire others to seek their own greatness and to believe in it.

I love how you were so different at a young age… When girls were interested in partying and experimenting. Well, you my dear were more interested in developing yourself, creating projects/businesses, breaking apart computers just to understand how they worked. Ah YES! Let’s not forget you have always been boy crazy ; so I guess that part was pretty typical.

You have always been drawn towards the unknown, since I can remember. Contemplation was one of your favorite past time, actually I think it might still be.  Through contemplation of life itself and how you fit in the grand scheme of things you began to explore more into the unknown. You dared to think outside the box…

I love that you seek out to find your own answers and that you don’t blindly conform to others.  I love how you now understand that you came to this reality to experience and bring heaven on earth…  I love that your questions always take you on a journey, you always want to know more. But I love even more how recently you accepted that although its okay to want to know everything. You must have patience to allow & accept things to reveal itself in its own time & not when you think it ought to be.

I love that you are not afraid to laugh at yourself, that you embrace your flaws. I love that when you dance, you forget that people are around & you get lost in your own world without regard for how others may view you.

I love that you can be like water gentle enough to follow the natural paths of the earth, and strong enough to rise up and reshape the world. Overall, I love that you are a bit of everything all rolled up into one. You can be playful and serious,  deep and shallow, a lover and a bitch,  patient and impatient,  humble and narcissistic,  submissive and dominant, cute and sexy, predictable  and unpredictable, childish and mature,  ignorant and wise … and all the other things that you at times are.

I am neither especially clever nor especially gifted. I am only very, very curious.
– Albert Einstein

With love your High Self,

SF